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Saturday, June 21, 2008

lets see if i've changed this year...

I filled this out a few years ago...lets see if i can add any more X's to it...big cyan X's are new...


I've done
Level 1
(X) smoked a cigarette
(
X) smoked a cigar
(x) done weed
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight

SO FAR: 5


Level 3
( ) snuck out of a parent's house
(xxxx) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) had a crush on an older person
(xxxx) skipped school/period of class
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die

SO FAR: 10


Level 5
(x) had/have a crush on one of ur MYSPACE friends
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
(x) thrown up from drinking

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
(x) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
( ) been mosh pitting

SO FAR: 16


Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
( ) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel

SO FAR: 19


Level 8
( )had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

SO FAR: 23


Level 9
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

SO FAR: 26

Level 10
( ) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x)watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

SO FAR: 28

Level 11
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer [i was too scared to touch it]

SO FAR: 30

Level 12
(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
( ) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident

SO FAR: 32


Level 13
( ) had/have braces
(
X) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had De Ja Vu
(x) danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 34


Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(
X) been obsessed with post-it notes

SO FAR: 37


Level 15
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the world
- I STILL NEED TO GO!!!!!!
(x) swam in the ocean
(x
X) felt like you were dying

SO FAR: 41

Level 16
(x
X) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
( ) paid for meal with only coins

SO FAR: 44


Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(
X) kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 47


Level 18
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(
X) watched the sun set with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach

SO FAR: 50


Level 19
( ) crashed a party
(x) have traveled in a car for 2 days in a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) fu*cked a monkey

SO FAR: 53

Level 20
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" in class
( ) swam with dolphins

SO FAR: 53

Level 22
( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) Sat on a roof top

SO FAR: 54

Level 23
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done/attempted a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night

SO FAR: 56

Level 24
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had/been in a tree house
(x) watch scary movies alone


SO FAR: 59

Level 25
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in/visited jail

SO FAR: 60

Level 26
( ) played chicken
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused

SO FAR: 63

Level 27
( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) made a sex video
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed

SO FAR: 65

Level 28
( ) mooned/flashed someone
( ) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house

SO FAR: 69 -- HECK YES!!!!!
ITS MORE NOW, BUT I'M STILL KEEPING THAT NUMBER THERE

Level 30
(x) Rode a roller coaster
( ) went scuba-diving/snorkeling
(x) had a cavity

SO FAR: 71

Level 31
(x) Been used
(x) fell going up the stairs
( ) licked a cat
(x) bitten someone
(x) licked someone



Saturday, January 19, 2008

Algo me dice que ya no volverás
estoy seguro que esta vez
na habrá marcha atrás

Después de todo fui yo a decirte que no
sabes bien que no es cierto
estoy muriendo por dentro

Y ahora es que me doy cuenta
que sin ti no soy nada
he perdido las fuerzas
he perdido las ganas

He intentado encontrarte
en otras personas
no es igual
no es lo mismo
nos separa un abismo

Vuelve
que sin ti la vida se me va
Oh, vuelve
que me falta el aire si tú no estás
oh, vuelve
nadie ocupará tu lugar

Sobra tanto espacio
si no estás
no paso un minuto sin pensar
sin ti la vida lentamente se me va

Algo me dice
ya no sirve de nada
tantas noches en vela
aferrado a mi almohada

Si pudiera tan solo regresar un momento
ahora es que te comprendo
ahora es cuando te pierdo

Vuelve
que sin ti la vida se me va...

y a pesar que fui yo
a decirte que no
sin embargo aquí sigo insistiéndote

Vuelve
que sin ti la vida se me va...


------and...in english------

Something tells me you're not coming back
I'm certain that this time
There's no going back

After everything I went to say no to you
You know well that it's not certain
I'm dying inside

And now I realize
That without you I'm nothing
I've lost the strength
I've lost the desire

I tried to find you
In other people
They're not the same
It's not the same
An abyss separates us

Come back
Because without you my life just goes by
Come back
Because I can't breathe if you're not here
Come back
No one can take your place

There's so much space
If you're not here
A minute doesn't go by that I don't think (about you)
Without you my life passes slowly by

Something tells me
That it's not worth it
So many sleepless nights
Hugging my pillow

If I could I'd turn back time
Now that I understand you
Now that I've lost you

Come back
Because without you my life just goes by ...

And despite that I went
to tell you no
Without a doubt I'm still here begging you

Come back
Because without you my life just goes by....


Sunday, January 13, 2008

1. What's one thing that's heavily weighing on your mind?
There are 3...my friends know 1

2. What's one thing you've learned from a good friendship gone bad?
I trusted too much

3. What's one thing you've learned lately from love?
That no matter how much you love somebody, it can't change the path life has chosen for the 2 of you

5. What's a happy time you've had in the past week?
Friends visiting Friday night...it helped a lot

6. Is there anything in your past that you'd like to try again?
The one thing that everyone knows I'm sad about

7. Who do you like to spend your nights with?
Friends

8. Are you an emotional person?
From time to time

9. Are you self conscious?
Of course, who isn't?

10. Do you think of others before yourself?
Too much...especially in the situation I'm in right now

11. What's something that can always make you feel better?
Talking to friends; knowing that they are there for me

12. Who was the last person you had a crush on?
I haven't had a crush in a looooooooong time...I've been too distracted to notice anyone else

13. Where do you see yourself this time next year?
Hopefully in a much better situation

14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated?
I try not to, but apparently girls are drama

15. Who do you feel the most comfortable around?
My close friends in SD, my freakettes and of course my family

16. Is there something that you're waiting for?
Yes.  Something I know most likely won't happen.  A girl can dream though...

17. One thing you're not looking forward to?
Work on Monday

18. How do you feel about change?
Positive change is good, negative/hurtful change I want to always avoid

19. Who was the last person to sleep in your bed?
Other than me, Tyrone a few days ago

20. What are your plans for your next birthday?
That's too far away to think about

21. Do you even care about your birthday?
Yeah but parties are something I have bad luck with

22. Do you think anyone in general out there loves you?
Yeah...but the one in particular...oh God I HOPE SO...

23. When do you think the world will end?
A looooooooong time from now

24. What's the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
Prom dresses, letterman jacket, pea coats...nothing too specail

26. Do you still talk to the person you last kissed?
Yes...

28. Is there someone you'd want to marry? right now?
Duh

30. Did you get any compliments today?
I moved to the other couch!!!!!  No, really, that is big today

31. Are you friends with your neighbors?
We don't talk to the coyote

32. What were you just thinking about?
Refer to # 27 and 28

33. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
I really need to get over this...I look like hell

34. When is the next time you will make out with somebody?
Damnit.  Who knows

38. What's a word that rhymes with "JUCK"?
FUCK

39. What's your favorite planet?
I'm indifferent now that Pluto was taken away

40. What do you "label" yourself as?
A little bit of everything...depends on the situation

44. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
currently not wearing shoes

45. Bright or dark rooms?
Medium...nothing blinding where you can't sleep, but nothing dark and deoressing

47. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep in?
The one next to the window and furthest from the door

48. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Sleeping

49. Did you dream last night?
Yeah...random stuff....

50. What just so happens to be the best sound in the world?
The voice of the one you love

51. What's a word or phrase that you say a lot?
Damnit

52. Who told you he/she loved you last?
Mom and Dad

53. Last furry thing you touched?
n/a

54. How many drugs have you done in the past year?
2...if alcohol counts too

55. What are you drinking?
Nothing

56. Do you have film that needs to be developed?
No I'm all digital now

57. Favorite age you have been so far?
24...best surprises that year...

58. Who was the last person you talked to on AIM?
Pablo

59. Your worst enemy?
I hope I don't have REAL enemies

60. What is your current desktop picture?
A collage I made of me, friends and family

61. Do you miss someone?
Oh God, more than I could ever possibly explain

62. Do you love someone?
Yes...a few people

63. Last song you listened to?
Something by Snoop Dogg

67. What do you do when you pass graveyards?
Start to hope that  I don't have to go to one any time soon...

68. Have you ever seen a shooting star?
Heck yea

69. How old do you think you'll live to be?
I don't want to be too old...I want to be healthy, happy and all there in the head

70. List five things you want to do in your lifetime?
1. START A BUSINESS
2. GO TO DUBAI
3. BE SUCCESSFUL
4. HAVE A HAPPY FAMILY
5. TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD
...in no particular order...except for #1...

71. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
Absolutely not

73. Have you ever kissed anyone named Mike?
Nope, but someone I swear looked like him!

74. What's your favorite pair of shoes?
Chucks

75. What was the last thing you ate?
Fries and chicken strips

76. What is the last movie you watched?
Catch and Release...

77. What color is your hair?
Blonde

78. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
Because he was leaving...to say goodbye and cherish the last moment we had together.

79. Do you miss anyone right now?
YES...

80. What do you fear now?
What do you think?!....DUH

81. Describe your dream car.
BMW 7 series

82. Describe your mom?
Amazing!!

83. Describe your pillow case.
Red silk

84. Describe your eyes.
Green

85. Do you believe in soul mates?
I thought so...

86. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
Of course

87. Do you speak another language other than English?
Kinda....I dabble. ha

88. Do you have any goals right now?
Go out of the house. Go to the gym. Start to feel better.

89. What is your current mood?
Still crushed...but getting a bit better

90. Have you bought a car this year?
No...

91. Anything exciting happen this year?
The year just started...and NOTHING good has come of it yet

92. Got any tattoos or piercing this year?
No way

93. Had a haircut?
I need to go get one

94. Been in a hospital this year?
No thank goodness

95. Been on a vacation this year?
Not yet...I need to go somewhere though

98. Read any books?
Reading The Secret...

99. Worst thing to happen this year?
JANUARY 10

100. Any Regrets?
There has been nothing I could even try to have handled differently, so no


Sunday, August 06, 2006

Oh man....get me a life!

I've done
Level 1
( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(x) done weed
( ) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank alcohol

SO FAR: 2

Level 2
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight

SO FAR: 5


Level 3
( ) snuck out of a parent's house
(xxxx) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
( ) gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) had a crush on an older person
(xxxx) skipped school/period of class
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone die

SO FAR: 10


Level 5
(x) had/have a crush on one of ur MYSPACE friends
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to Spain
(x) been on a plane
(x) thrown up from drinking

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
(x) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
( ) been mosh pitting

SO FAR: 16


Level 7
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
( ) love someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel

SO FAR: 19


Level 8
( )had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

SO FAR: 23


Level 9
( ) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

SO FAR: 26

Level 10
( ) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x)watched the sun set
(x) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

SO FAR: 28

Level 11
(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer [i was too scared to touch it]

SO FAR: 30

Level 12
(x) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
( ) had detention
(x) been in a car/motorcycle accident

SO FAR: 32


Level 13
( ) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had De Ja Vu
(x) danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 34


Level 14
(x) hated the way you look
( ) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes

SO FAR: 37


Level 15
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the world
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying

SO FAR: 41

Level 16
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
( ) paid for meal with only coins

SO FAR: 44


Level 17
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 47


Level 18
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun set with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach

SO FAR: 50


Level 19
( ) crashed a party
(x) have traveled in a car for 2 days in a car full of people
(x) gone rollerskating/blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) fu*cked a monkey

SO FAR: 53

Level 20
( ) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" in class
( ) swam with dolphins

SO FAR: 53

Level 22
( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) Sat on a roof top

SO FAR: 54

Level 23
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done/attempted a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(x) stayed up all night

SO FAR: 56

Level 24
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had/been in a tree house
(x) watch scary movies alone


SO FAR: 59

Level 25
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in/visited jail

SO FAR: 60

Level 26
( ) played chicken
(x) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused

SO FAR: 63

Level 27
( ) caught a fish then ate it
(x) made a sex video
( ) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed

SO FAR: 65

Level 28
( ) mooned/flashed someone
( ) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house

SO FAR: 69 -- HECK YES!!!!!

Level 30
(x) Rode a roller coaster
( ) went scuba-diving/snorkeling
(x) had a cavity

SO FAR: 71

Level 31
(x) Been used
(x) fell going up the stairs
( ) licked a cat
(x) bitten someone
(x) licked someone

SO FAR: 75


Saturday, June 24, 2006

When things in your lives seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with an unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things--your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions---and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.

The sand is everything else---the small stuff. "If you put the sand
into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.

"Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first---the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee
represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."



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